Love or infatuation i cant decide i try to view things through my minds eye but my heart overrides it every time

foolishly thinking i can leave you alone, that I'm done and never to return

but the reality is I'm caught up in a love sick addiction in which my heart refuses to flee

so my mind fights me constantly

I'm sorry mind for doing this again but damn he keep breaking me off again and again.... oh and one more again!!!

but how can you blame me you know you love that ridiculous body crippling, stomach turning, emotions flaring high,

and that's why he knows that as long as he's supplying I'm always his addict desperately needing the next time Oh how I need to escape....

but insanely i want to stay and remain in tangled in the so called love he feeds me wrapped in the emotions of caring, genuine, and true

but honestly I'm no fool i know exactly how you do what you do

because little do you know I'm doing it to you

So together we stay in a relationship built on lust of me and lust of you,

i needing you for that last time...and for another last time, and you needing me cause ILL accept YOU every time, and knowing in your heart that YOU could never deny me cause YOU'LL accept ME every time

But baby there Will come a day when true love will come my way, and all i can pray is that i wont be so gone that i cant break free from the lust of sin that you tied me in.

Hoping that i can live free from you and never to return again!!!

So the time has come where i must choose to remain an addict living off the likes of you, or live for the One and True Love who carried me through?

And guess who i choose?

Not you, but the man who said come when you used and abused me, and yet said come

when i made a vow to him and broke it,

or the times i said he is my everything and i will forsake all else and i returned back to the lusts of you..

.BUT HE STILL SAID COME!!!

So i can conclude today that you are lust and my God is Love. Unconditionally, never failing, always upright Love!!!!!!!

And that this addict has broken free from the chains of bondage through the salvation of my ONE TRUE LOVE!!!!!!!